Untitled. Lost. ;Without hope`

Thursday, August 03, 2006

me
her

was playing ard with my handphone under the blanket when she asked..

wad u doing?
msging my other ger

she kept quiet and continue to watch vcd... after some time.........

hey.. y u no reaction de??
wad reaction u wan mi to have?
well.. wan to see whether will u be concern or not..

she reli no reaction.. ..... -_-'''

hey.. u reli dun care if i got other gers ah??
if its urs its urs..
wa.. u mean trust huh? so it doesnt matter who i msg is it?
i believe one shd have their own space and frds..
oh.. ok..
den u expect mi to question u every now n den?
no la.. but i still hope to see some reaction to see if u care
do i appear to u tt i dun care??
ya!

moments passed..

maybe i shd learn to be like huihui (her frd..) sa yi jing bai..
huh?? wads tt??
u mean u dun know tt?? ur chinese so poor?
so wads tt????
it means kill one warn hundred..
oh.. but i know u wun do tt..

she just kept quiet

let mi ask u.. if u r in a r/s n it so happens tt u feel something for another person, do u see it as betrayal or its normal? wads ur views?

if u know wad u r doing n u dun encourage it, i dun see it as a betrayal.. it is expected to have good impression of other ppl.. its human nature.. when i was with pat tt time, i have feelings for u.. but i dun see it as a betrayal..

ok..

so.. from tis conversation, we r reli different in our thinking.. i will feel guilty if i happens to have feelings or 'hao gan' for another person.. for her, she handles it as part n parcel of life.. so imagine how she tinks when i get jealous over her going out with someone who likes her.. how childish i appear to be!!

maybe tts wad age do to each of us.. e way of us seeing n doing things.. she's not an affectionate person, wun say mushy things, v adult manner.. mi? feel insecure needs to be ensure, loves to show how i feel n stuff.. well.. we r definitely v different!!

hai.. wadever the case, i am who i am.. if eventually we find ourselves not suited for each other, well.. no choice.. back to frds..

somehow, deep inside mi, tt's not wad i wan..

11:05 AM;
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