Shld you stay or go is a question only you can answer. Do you want to let her tag you along, while she's taking her time and enjoying your treatment, while you spent your life as a yoyo? Are you willing? There's no right or wrong, its about what you want? If you want happiness, where are you going with her? I can only say, "if I were you" I would break it off as I wont be able to take it like that.

Its whether we are in or we are out, and no half half. If you can handle her for how she is now, despite the possibility that she cld possible dump you in the end, and still prefer to stick with her for as long as possible despite your heartache that she's causing you, its your choice. If you feel that she is destroying you, and you would prefer to be happier and not destroyed, then you should let her go. Its all up to you, your own happiness, your future, your desire, your suffering, your actions, ... she will decide for herself, and you yourself. Do not think that you can decide for her, nor she for you. If you let her decide for you, then you are just being a puppet.

someone sent it to mi on fridae
we faced similar probs.. dating a 10 yrs older woman
situation almost e same..
n i got her word of advice.

up till now..
i still cant fully accept tt shes no longer mine..
wad i accepted was she will nv be e same like b4..

visited the canal few days ago
a place where i always frequent whenever im down..
my mood was low and tears just come..
its been sooo long since i experience tis pain..

i feel helpless..

i know feeling sad wun help matters..
wads over will be over..
its just.. i sitll love her v much..

managed to just msg her without hoping she will reply..
well she did but it nv help to ease my fragile hrt..
guess i shd stop all tis pathetic moves n get on wif my life..

she's not feeling e way i feel..

i know i will be ok..
its just tt i dunno when..

12:27 PM;
I made my mark

went out yest.. need to get some air to forget abt things..
went chilling wif gary, LC, my sis...
was walking n joking n lauging n lookin at gers..
it's like going back to my life before she came in..
only difference is.. i miss her lots...

ate sushi den saw tis ger v sweet looking..
who knows.. she say "excuse mi!!" real loud!!
looks can be decivings..
maybe she too hungry tts y shouted loudly to gain ppl's attention.. hahahaha

plan to watch Happy feet (again)
end up making lots of unwanted trips den nv watch..
but i brought a ring though..
with her name inside..



dun ask mi y i do tt..
i refused to get couple rings when we r together
coz im worried tt we will break up..
now tt we no longer together,
i feel like doing something as a memory for our r/s

anyway, we went to eat mac..
alot of ppl and we were taking pics at PS..
i was v full even though i din reli eat much..
so.. ya.. e photos...



our meal...







tt's big head gary



n finally our christmas tree.........

was home exactly at 12am..
but im not cinderalla..
im heartbroken prince..
haha..

off to work later..
got no mood..
but have to do wad i need to do..
so..

shall update again..


hope u r doing well..

1:33 PM;
I made my mark